Mood: Tearing

Song: 原谅我一次 & 一个人哭

Im sick now. Woke up & didnt saw Bi♥'s msg. I thot he nv go sch agn, so msg him & he called me. I always loved t hear him calling me baby w his happiest tone. Surprisingly dis morning dont have. After he hang up th phone, i fall asleep. I didnt knw tht he msged me asking me why i like no mood. I only woke up at his 2nd msg. Which is saying tht, he wants a trial separation so tht we might strenghten our relationship. He didnt even let me explain tht im sick. & now, his phone is off. I slashed my hand agn. Altho i knw its stupid, but i guess my depression is back. I need my medication now!

I have no mood t do anyth now. Just feel like blogging everyth out. Im sad. Im heartbroken. Actually my life have nothing. Just when Bi♥ entered my life on 10august, he printed a colour love in me life. Just like th picture above. He nv fail me t make me laugh. He find things t entertain me. He love & care for me like a child. He pampered me like a baby. He hold my hand & cross th road like a kids. But now, i duno all dis will still happen anot. Sigh. Here i am, crying while blogging. Why is thr so much ups & down in a relationship? I hate myself agn.