'm awake alr & i didnt txt
♥baby. Reasons is, 'm super
heartbroken over someth tht is running wild in my head. & i dont wanna quarrel w
♥baby. Cus if i txt him w moodless msg,
'm afraid, he will say those words agn.
Take note. I'll be deleting
friendster &
msn soon as its stated in my friendster shoutout due t some reason. But facebook is still on. (
x.girl__@hotmail.com )
This blog might be closing down & i'll create a new one but post will not be imported.
At this post of time. 'm seriously lost w words.
Words tht cant be verbalised. I cant think of words t describe my feeling niether do i have words t describe what im thinking. But i'll try t. All i can say now is, its all abt me &
♥baby.
How should i start? *i still cant think of any word*
'm happy, being w my boyf. Yes, i swear i really do. Till now, so much things tht have happened, i still love him like i always do. He's th only one, tht is in my heart. He's a
perfect boyf t me. & all these are facts.
Actually, everyth is fine. But 'm always thinking tht he have changed. Th first day i knw him. He will fill my phone w all his
sweet msges. Slowly, its
getting lesser. Now even when he wake up from nap or morning when he's going sch. He dont msg me. When he's sch ended, he reached home. He nv even msg me. Tht's when i get
real upset like now. & here i am. Being so
stressed up of whether he's still loving me?
'm afraid, t knw th answer. Just like how afraid i am of he leaving me. My love for him is
always true. If i've did someth wrong t make him stop loving me, i'll nv blame him. But, i just want t change for him t make
everyth alright. Cus, my love for him can nv
count. His friendster thing, 'm not gonna say anyth anymore & i'll try. Cus, even if he wants t be w another girl, i cant force him not t. Cus forcing someone t love will nv have happiness. As i believed, what's yours, will eventually be yours. If th love was meant t be, he wont leave for another girl.
If one day he leave me for another better girl, th scar on my heart & th memories he gave me, will be kept deep down in my heart. I'll still love him, like i always do. I promise.Why am i blogging it here? Cus i just want t say it out & feel better. As im crying all along. My heart is pain. But when i see th smile on his face. He covered all my sadness, burdens, pain-ness & everyth away cus you meant t be th world t me, t hold on & t live w.
How i wish,
♥baby will appear in front of me t hug me tight now & telling me, he will never leave me no matter what. Or at least a msg from him.
No matter what.
♥baby, im always loving you. You're th only want, i want t be w. No matter how lonely i am. I will nv find replacement of you. Hugs.
Aldonis Low Chun Fei, iLOVEyou. Where have you been?
♥baby, listen t th song '
She Bu De & Love To Be Loved By You '. It can be found in my music playlist.
Labels: ♥baby i need you badly now. Cries :'(
♥ Always loving my goodboy-
12:45 AM
.Do you still love me?-