Hello readers :D Miss me? Hah, im mean miss my post? Im finally back home aft 3days of fun , laughter & sadness w superboy .

17July - 19July
Afternoon 2+, JH cab down my house t lent me his lappy cus i got some stuffs t do. Do till 5pm lykdat, prepared & JH took cab t send me & dasao t uncle house & he went t meet his friend. Reached uncle house, 'sail diamond boat'. Laughs. Sail tgt w uncle some more. Sail till 10pm, korkor came too. Me & dasao sail finish ler. I damn shag at tht time, so korkor sailed & he give me some. LOL~ Thn JH wants t go my house collect his stuffs. I ask him wait till i go home thn cab down. He dont want. Cab dwn at 12am + when im still not home yet. 1am +, when im in th cab talking t s.boy. JH called me.

JH: Eh, where you? I now at ur house ley.
Me: *Super angry* Fuck you lah, go up gum lan ah. My parents sleeping ley cb. I told you wait for me t come back right.
JH: Sorry lah. I dont know why i lost till see wrong msg thn dont know why go up press door bell also.
Me: *told cab uncle t change destination t find s.boy cus dont want go home quarrel w parents* Cb, my parents next day need t go malaysia. You go press door bell not only thy wake up t open door, my dog also wake up t bark.
JH: Sorrysorry, where you now?
Me: On th way home lah cb. *actually is fake him cus i damn dulan*

When i reached th changed destination, JH called again.

JH: Where you?
Me: Outside, i not going back so early.
JH: Huh why?
Me: Cus of you lah nbcb.
JH: Thn what time you coming back?
Me: Dont know, slowly wait.
JH: I need t go home.
Me: Thn go lah.
JH: Tmr thn pass me.

Sit at coffee shop drink water while s.boy go buy things. After tht headed t 'sail diamond boat' again. Laughs. Im like continuous sailing ._. Not bad uhs (: Sail till morning, thn rest.
Aft resting, me & s.boy change sailing place. LOL! Spend money like drinking water -.- Resting alr, not sailing boat. Hahas. Thn evening, pei s.boy go work. At night linda came & find us {: Chatted at coffee shop. 10+, linda pei me go back t my sailing place t bathe & etc. Supposed t go find s.boy aft i bathe but when i finishing bathing, he alr come back. When i was listening song, someth flash across my mind. Th memories was indeed too strong & i shed some tears. Trying t control cus after 12am its one month. Linda thot tht i was angry w her & i dont want her t stay w us. I dont know why she like tht think but well after tht she know tht its not abt her (: S.boy text me & ask me stop crying thn faster sailing diamond boat again. Its 12am, Happy one month :D So sailing session start again. Linda sail too :D 1+, dont know what happened again. Linda suddenly left us like angry like tht. Dont know she paranoid or what. But we didnt text her & ask is cus we dont want conflicts {: 3+, we stopped and headed downstairs t buy things. Went up, talk awhile & we start again. Sail till morning. I 2days nv sleep ler ): While resting, flash backs again. I cried again. I slowly calm down & nap. Awhile, i wake up t prepare cus changing place again. S.boy told me i snoored x.x Pack up & left. Reached another place, actually not sailing ler. But in th end i supposed t get money so s.boy called weijie & ask him want kup diamond boat anot & he wanted. Aft awhile, my friend say he not enough money so he transfer nxt week. But we cant cancel th diamond boat, so no choice. S.boy paid again. Dis time round, th boat tht came is super big thn i expected. LMAO. =.= Sailed & half way s.boy go see his shop. Someth happened but he's fine (: Waited for him t come back & sail. Weijie went home aft tht. I told s.boy alot of things tht i've realised abt some people around him. *After sailing, i wash up & i wanted t rest & sleep. He dont let. He asked me for someth which i dont want t agree w it no matter what. He kinda forced. But i still didnt agree. So th quarrel start. At tht moment of time, i was super angry. I told him clear enough w reasons. Thn he's behaving totally different. A total changed of person, th way he talk t me, th way he look at me, his actions & movement. I know its cus of th effect. I endured. I felt like crying cus i didnt know he will angry aft forcing & i still disagree. Soon, i cant control th tears & it roll down. He dont even bother t console me or talk t me. Instead of msging me asking me t go sleep -.- He might think tht is nothing t him but its really hurting cus th way he forced was like someth tht happened t me before. I told him, i wanna leave. Thn he say what he stress abt work & stuffs, etc. But it has got nothing t link w what he we're quarreling abt & what he had force. Msg my mom. Telling her im not living well outside. She called & cry. She asked me t take cab home. But i dont want t leave s.boy alone cus he paid for tht place. Quarrelled till morning. I told him tht i want go downstairs t buy water. After drinking & buying cig, we went u & sleep. 4pm, i bus home & sleep all th way. & now its 1.16am & im blogging :D Going t sleep soon after playing SA w yangyang ((:

To S.boy
Let me tell you here in my post.
1st, thanks for paying 2 time for th diamond boat & th place we sail & rest.
2nd, thanks for taking care of me dis 3days.
3rd, thanks for making my one month memorable & special cus of th quarrel.
4th, thanks for making me laugh, smile, joy, happy & ofcus sad.

On th second day, after we sail. Rmb i cried cus of my own probs & did i told you what i feel abt you & stuffs. Did i told you tht i dont want th first quarrel t start btwn us. You told me you wont. I trusted you. But why, exactly on th day itself, you started it? You want me t lose trust in you is it? If i really lose trust in you, it will be hard t gain back. For th thing tht you forced me. So what if you have alr asked alot of time & i didnt agree w it? I tell you. No point forcing or get angry w it. Cus love, dont include tht. If you continue forcing, thr will be no happiness. I will get phobia towards you thn for sure feelings towards you will change & slowly, everyth will end. If you dont want dis t happen, thn let nature take its own course. Meaning, wait till th day come. But if thr would t be a 2nd time tht dis thing happen again. I will tell you sorry & goodbye. I mean it. Cus i seriously cant accept dis type of things. & now, altho things happened alr & we're not talking abt it anymore. But, it doesnt mean its solved & i can forget dis thing. Its hard for me t forget. Just give me time. For dis tht had happened, my feeling for you had changed abit. But i hope you'll do someth abt it t held back my heart. No matter what you do nxt time, please have a 2nd thought. You're old enough, dont let me feel like im being w a immatured guy.

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